I AM LOVE. I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING. I START FRESH. I GIVE MYSELF CHANCES. I DONT GIVE UP. I AM LOVE. I AM FORGIVENESS.
In this post, I would like to continue sharing my journey with suicidal thoughts and my learnings related to Self Love issues. In this lifetime, I attempted to commit suicide twice. The 3rd time when I planned, it triggered my spiritual awakening. As you can see how hopeless I must have been to reach the point of ending my life. I felt I really hit the bottom in this lifetime. I am so grateful now for all my experiences but I will like to share my soul's perspective about having suicidal thoughts.
In one of the Tao retreats in 2011, I was going through some dramatic healing experiences. I could see flashes of previous lifetimes. I was healing very fast with Master Sha's blessings. One issue after another was healing. In this healing process, I was in compassionate care and many healers were working on me for various different reasons. During this process, I felt my soul was so angry at me. I was kind of shocked. It was very deep self anger experience. My soul came right in front of me and said 'Why are you always committing suicide? You have blocked my growth for so long'. I could feel the anger in me and also a big disappointment. I saw in my third eye (spiritual eye) 7 lifetimes in row I had committed suicide. I would just give up. I felt not wanted, and I would just give up. I had felt like this in this lifetime too. Now I know what was the underlying pattern here. Yes everything is karma but there was this pattern of not wanting myself. I didn't like who I was and how people perceived me. Lifetime after lifetime. This is accumulation of self issues. From the self anger came self forgiveness issues. It is like I didn't wanted to accept myself. The self issues kept piling up. The suicidal thoughts went away with Master Sha's blessing and also from the guidance of Guan Yin. One time, I saw Guan Yin in my 3rd eye and she said "My daughter just give yourself chances. Don't ever give up. Give yourself time lines to heal. Start all over again, everyday." This teaching has helped me so much. I still give myself time lines if I am struggling. There is hope. We can always start all over again. Everyday I feel better and better as my self issues are transforming.
Lets start fresh today. Lets forgive ourselves for what has happened deeply. Lets love ourselves more. I would like to offer a healing blessing for FORGIVING YOURSELF DEEPLY. I love you so much. Thank you for being part of my soul journey.
Ty ty ty I definetly need more forgiveness . Thank you Master Sha, thank you Master Avninder CBDs CBDs CBDs
ReplyDeleteThank you Master Avi for your deep sharing. For sharing your struggles as well as your successes. My heart and soul are so happy that you are transforming these issues and I very much hope to heal as well. I love you and I thank you.
ReplyDeleteDearest Master Avninder, thank you for your honest sharing, very hearttouching. I want to start new again and forgive myself for my mistakes and love myself more. Thank you and Love you CBD CBD CBD to Master Sha who gives us so much Love and Forgiveness
ReplyDeletethank you so much master avninder! thank you thank you thank you!!! love
ReplyDeletety ty ty for the deep sharing. i am so grateful for this post. i can see in my third eye the really long list of souls who this will help feel loved and like they have hope again. love you. ❤
ReplyDeletety ty ty for the deep sharing. i am so grateful for this post. i can see in my third eye the really long list of souls who this will help feel loved and like they have hope again. love you. ❤
ReplyDeleteTY Master Avi. Great information and sharing.
ReplyDeleteThank you Master Avninder for sharing your healing journey, your love and courage will light the way for many,..love you..
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for this sharing. I am glad you are with us and teaching us these important messages. Love you
ReplyDeleteBeloved Master Avninder, I am in tears after reading this post. It is so profound, so honest, so loving. I also tend to 'give up' sometimes and say to myself 'it's too late anyway now', thoughts that make no sense as you shared so freely: we can always start anew. No need to condemn ourselves and to think it's too late. Every moment is a new opportunity, an opportunity to love ourselves more, to forgive ourselves more, to serve ourselves and others more. Love you deeply, Master Avninder
ReplyDeleteDearest beloved Master Avninder, my love is with you. I had the same experiences...And I was also at the lowest point in my life when the light from Master Sha crossed my way. To be his student and on my way to be a deciple is more I ever could imagine. I met my deepest fears these days and could offer and receive forgiveness. Although there is much more to heal, it is such a special step done. I am grateful beyond. How blessed we are to be together and being able to share honestly our deepest pain. Thank you for being who you are. Thank you for all your love. I bow down to your beautiful soul. Yours, tatjana
ReplyDeleteDear Master Avi,
ReplyDeleteSuch deep truth...thank you.
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Dear everyone, Thank you so much for posting your comments and sharing. I am so honored to serve you all. I am so happy that you are all part of my soul journey. Please receive a healing blessing for "FORGIVING YOURSELF DEEPLY" only as app. Thank you again. Love you all.
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