I am LOVE ..... (pOst 1)

Hello again!

I am so honored to write a series of blog posts called "I AM LOVE" for a month. In these posts, I will be writing about:

• Self-Love, 
• Self Forgiveness, 
• Self Compassion, 
• Self Trust, 
• Self Confidence, 
• and more. 

I was guided by Heaven to heal these aspects and share the learnings, teachings and practices with others to help to heal the same issues. I have been consciously trying to heal this part of me for almost 4 years. I feel layers have been healed, but there is much more to go.

I would like to share a profound experience that I recently had in one of Master Sha's advance retreats. Master Sha usually offers Divine treasures for healing to all the retreat participants. In order to receive these Divine Treasures, one has to be approved by either Master Sha or his senior disciples. Some people can be approved all the time and some seldom. The approval system depends on many aspects like purity, love, forgiveness, service, karma, spiritual testing and more. For different people the reason could be different for being selected or not. The guidance is given by Heaven. I used to get approved for everything and after some intense testing I had to really go deeper in my forgiveness in order to be approved.

In the recent retreat, I started to do my forgiveness practice right away. I went very deep. I felt I worked hard. I was bowing down and crying. I asked for forgiveness for everything possible. Any soul that I have ever hurt or harmed in this lifetime and past lifetimes. I went to the extent of thinking about little things and asking forgiveness. I was sitting with another Divine Channel who I am not going to name to respect this beloved one. I saw this Divine Channel was not working hard like me but was in total ease and love. I would look at this Divine Channel and my heart would fill with the most beautiful form of love. This Divine Channel was constantly emanating profound love. This Divine Channel did practices and listened to the teacher and sometimes would say a few sweet words to me. I was in total awe. Next, Master Sha announced a beautiful Divine Treasure and asked all the Divine Channels to come up for approval. Many Divine Channels weren't approved including myself but the Divine Channel sitting near by me was approved. I was just shocked. Heavy in my heart, I came back to the my seat. Near tears, I closed my eyes and asked Heaven. What am I not doing right? I really worked hard. What did I miss? then this absolutely loving voice said "My daughter you forget to love yourself". My jaw dropped. Feeling heavy, I got up and left the room to go for dinner. I felt so sad. The sadness was so deep that I felt disoriented. I felt like I missed this point all my life. I became even harder on myself. For so long, I have been wondering what is going on with me. Heaven helped me to come out of this testing in an amazing way which is another story. I was guided by heaven to go rest in my room that day.

I woke up to much clarity. I started to practice Self-Love in that moment. Afterwards, I was approved for so many things in the retreat which had not happened for a very long time in this way. I became friends with the Divine Channel sitting near me. I could feel a profound level of self-love from this Divine Channel. I have been learning so much from this Divine channel ever since. I knew Heaven was helping me by arranging us to sit together. I felt high level of joy. I felt this strength in my heart and soul that I have not experienced before. I couldn't believe how loving yourself can bring this amazing light forth. I will share in future posts that what you deprive yourself from when you don't love yourself. Shocking realizations came to me. It is like this missing puzzle piece of my soul journey was revealed to me. All of the sudden, I feel connected to everything because I connected to myself.

Today, repeat to yourself, "I am Love". Keep chanting this phrase. This will stir up some emotions. In the beginning when you are saying it, you won't even believe it if you have deep self-love issues but just keep saying it to yourself that you are love. Share your experiences. We will start the healing work in the next post. So whatever starts to happen for you, know that you are embarking a journey to love yourself unconditionally. You are going to heal. It is not easy at times because the patterns are so deep, but we have Master Sha and all the tools that he brought to Mother Earth. We can do it.

I am so grateful that Heaven showed me where I have to work. I can see now that these issues are the root cause of many many blockages in life. I want to heal this and I want to help you all to heal this too.

I am so honored to participate in your healing if you allow me. I love you all so much. Thank you for being part of my soul journey.